It hasn't been the best start to the week. My graduate program has an orals exam part that must be passed in order to fulfill requirements for graduation.
And I didn't pass. And it sucks, big - time.
I studied for hours on end the past few weeks and have been reading in preparation since this summer. I'm an ok test taker but I'm horrible, like seriously, horrible at remembering details. And I'm not getting into excuses or the test-givers and their attitudes.
But, it just makes you feel inadequate to have someone tell you to your face "you failed." When you know you are a smart person - just not able to relate the random quote from a Romantic poet's poetry. And other people can, and other people do - and they pass and they celebrate in the midst of your failure.
Anyway, it's not fun and its been a hard few days because it puts off my graduation date till May. Which means I have to come back and re-take the exam to get my degree. Arggh.
And I'm trying to find a job in a new town.
So, as they say, the "best laid plans..." - my plans are just changed for now. It's only a bump in the road. Life lessons, eh? But ya know what, it is going to work out for the best - causes a wrinkle in plans but that is life and ya just gotta make the best of it.
And really, at the end of the day - I would rather fail any and every exam, and have a husband who skips a meeting to come home to comfort me & hug me, tell me it's going to be alright and take me for a Sonic hamburger for lunch. And of course, a sweet dog who will sit by my side while I cry.
Because really, that is what matters in the end.
"What lies behind us and what lies before us, are tiny matters, compared to what lies within us."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson
8 comments:
It sounds like your head is in the right place, Britt, you know what really matters. Qaul exams are misery-makers and you are not the first, nor will you be the last, to take one twice. Keep your chin up, you are a smart girl and I know you'll shine on the second time around.
I am so sorry. I can only imagine how bummed you must be. It must stink to have been planning for graduation and the big move for so long only to have to wait until May. But you will get there eventually and your hard work will pay off!
I am so sorry. Hang in there! You have the right attitude, and that will take you so far.
Oh no! I'm so sorry- that totally stinks! But hang in there- it sounds like things will work out in the end. Jan is a bad month to move anyway!
Ok, nevermind- I just re-read your blog and realize that you are already moving to Indy in Dec.
I lived in Indy for about four years and I LOVE it! GREAT city. Downtown Indy has really grown in the last several years. So many fantastic places to eat and shop. Great spots to jog along the canal too. If you don't plan on living Downtown, living near Butler/Tarkington is fun. Great old houses with tons of character. And close to downtown, Keystone Mall and other fun areas in between.
If you have specific questions, please feel free to email me at pinkcrocodiledesigns at hotmail dot com.
I agree with the other posters... it sounds like you've got everything in perspective, even though it kinda sucks right now. I'm a big believer in Him having a life plan for us, so perhaps there's a reason for the delay that isn't seen yet!
Oh Britt, I am so sorry. You sound like you have such a great attitude about it though. You'll get there with that kind of determination. So, in the meantime...I think you should take a bubble bath, eat a few cupcakes, and buy yourself some flowers. Reward yourself for studying hard and know that it will pay off in May! Throw in the move and that is enough to cause anyone some serious stress...trust me I know! Best of luck with everything! Blue skies ahead!
So sorry to hear, that must really suck. Don't worry! Everything will come out in the end.
PS. Those jammies are adorable!
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