Morning Routines and other things

I quite enjoy my morning routine...in some order it involves coffee, cereal or banana toast, checking emails and straightening up around the house. Now, I told hub that I would get up with him earlier...like way earlier, 5:45 a.m., when he gets up so we could be on the same schedule. Btw, this has lasted one day so far. Part of my detox after the holidays was to switch back to drinking tea in the morning. I'm slightly obsessed with my morning lattes and my caffeine intake. I know it isn't great and tea lends itself to a more quiet boost. Anyhoo, I'm enjoying my morning tea immensely and I do feel better. I love my lattes and don't think I'll ever give them up completely but I'll keep em to a minimum. Also, I love our new teapot, which we picked up at Tuesday Morning. Tuesday is a TJ Maxx of sorts, with housewares and decorating. Honestly, half of their stuff is junk to me BUT their kitchen selection is great and half off of its normal price. Breville, Krups, Le Creuset...so we picked up a teapot, lasagna dish, bread knife and Bodum glasses for cheap!

Speaking of morning routines, I usually walk the dog every morning and today, it is pouring outside! (PS. Walking trails, ponds and sidewalks right near our house = love!). I know the 3 other people we saw out this morning were laughing their asses off ...I was wearing my husband's bright green raincoat which was about 3 sizes too big with the convenient (yet dorky looking) hood, bright pink hand weights and pants soaked by the rain. Then, I got annoyed and thought I'd just jog back only because that would get us home faster. Me, running in that get-up, and a dog who doesn't prefer rain and loves to stop, oh, about every 10 feet to do the "wet dog" shake, must have been an early morning sight!

On a whole different and introspective note, I have trouble clarifying myself sometimes. In life, in what I want and how I want it. Even as an English person/teacher, I have trouble clarifying what I mean to say, verbally or orally. And I don't like it! I'm constantly working so that I'm making myself clear and specific. I think blogging helps me a bit but sometimes it just feels like I let my brain get scattered in about 50 directions and I have a hard time focusing on exactly what I mean or say. Annnd, as you can tell, I obviously neurose and obsess about these little things. I am the queen of neurotic obsession, sometimes its funny, mostly it is aggravating and I need to "Let IT go." I'm constantly working on not obsessing, yet, ironically, I obsess about that. Eiiyiie. All that to say, these past few weeks, I've been trying to clarify to myself "what do I want to do/pursue/be/create?". There are many things I wouldn't mind doing, things I enjoy doing but do I really WANT to do. I've been looking at administrative type jobs, teaching jobs and a few other things. I know everyone says, "Do what you love," but I also consider the 45 (on a good day) minute commute a part of that and the pay (bad, I know...but also a part of reality). Of course, my husband is beyond supportive and says, "I don't care, do what will make you happy," which is lovely but not helpful. Do I want to teach a class or 2 an hour away for a little amount of money or wait on the job I want? I'm also a very impatient person and like to have the decisions made and be settled. My energy and enthusiasm are great qualities but sometimes make me seem aggressive and enhance my impatience. Oh, and I have a thesis to finish up. And sure, like any English person (among a lot of others), I'd love to write for a living. Am I afraid I don't have the will-power, discipline and skills to write what I want? Hell yeah. Am I afraid I'm missing out on life's passion? Kind of, but I want to take some time to figure it out.

That being said, I'm taking time to enjoy my life, be content and get clear with what I want. I think it is the time to sit back and wait and not be so impatient. Whew, it helps to write it all out! Well, I'm glad I clarified that! ;)